Monday, May 09, 2005

What makes a man?

It is not age. There are a lot of old boys running around. On TV, we see these guys who got rich riding skateboards and playing video games. The lines between men and boys are increasingly becoming blurry. It is not money. There are plenty of poor people who are amazing men, who take care of their responsibilities and do what needs to be done. I think it has a lot to do with responsibility. Learning to be responsible, thoughtful about circumstances and to have initiative, these are some of the makings of a man, an adult.
I feel like I am WAY behind the curve. I need to cultivate better self discipline, and a better work ethic. I can't beat up on myself too much, but I know that I can be doing a lot more than I am doing now.
In any case, that's todays submission.

Wednesday, May 04, 2005

A change in perspective

is sometimes all you need to change your life. A wake up call to the rest of your life. Me, I've had to lose everything several times to know what is most important in life. What is most important to me is my relationship with God, my role in my family and my role in the community. Everything else outside of those areas is secondary, tertiary-don't mean much.

I am still changing, growing and becoming the man that I ultimately want to be. It's not easy, but the harder I am learning to work, the better I am becoming.

Lately, I have been increasing my technical abilities, upgrading my skills. I've been building my website, learning to edit video, and do stuff in Photoshop.

I'm lazy though, and the hard thing for me is to sustain my energy around work. I could blame it on my ADHD, but that sounds too much like scapegoating and excuse making.

On and on, I am just making my way in the world, and I hope to leave it better than it was when I got here.